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The Reality of Heart Attacks

The more time goes on, the more this method becomes a problem, a person will start to have real experiences with no way to conceptualise or process them. It's likea world where everything is fake and then something real comes along but it's instantly dismissed because it doesn't fit in.

This could apply to many things yet the same result manifests over and over. The article is specifically about heart failure though, an extreme situation. Who would sit and write about heart failure, with no experience of what they are talking about ? Actually, as it happens, lots of people.  

However, the reality is so fearsome grown men have turned white at the sight of the scar running down my chest. Mind you, I was in the hospital shop prior to my op chatting to a guy working there and he lifted up his shirt, well,  he looked like he'd been peeled like an orange and sewn back together.

Having a bypass itself though, doesn't sit that well, I can't speak for anyone else but it's kind of painful and perhaps it does cut right to the centre of some sort of primeval fear or cultural taboo relating to self image. There's a line in one of Jason Statham's movies Crank where he's being particularly unpleasant to one of the bad guys and he says ‘you'll have to forgive me, I'm not in a very good mood this morning.’  Having heart surgery can leave one feeling a bit like that.  The way you see life before and after having your chest cut in half are probably not the same.       

For the details of it, heart attacks or Angina as it's called, do not necessarily kill you. It's possible and more than likely in fact that one will have loads of them. It's also likely that one won't even realise they are heart attacks. There's lots of pundits out there saying do this and do that but actually, the only thing you'd want to do is call an ambulance or go to the hospital.

It tends to be a deteriorating condition, over many years and just feels like physical pain. I wonder if people used to hard physical work are more at risk of ignoring angina or the warning signs that a final heart attack will come. In a way this article is about the difference between a heart attack and cardiac arrest.

What happens with a heart attack then is that one or several of the arteries, to the heart, gets partially blocked. If you imagine an artery in your hand  and then clasp it tight, that's what it feels like. That's what takes place and that's what you can feel. However, it's more often the case that one will feel the effects of that mechanism taking place. The arteries and veins elsewhere collapse down I suspect and cause a wide spectrum of symptoms.

I didn't get any pain in my chest and contrary to popular belief I only know one person who has described a heart attack in terms of chest pain. I do know someone who said they didn't feel anything but he had  just crashed his wheelchair into a bollard at the Para Olympics and I suspect he didn't feel that either.

Generally, I'd say the heart attacks have a very specific type of pain, almost like stretching and the pain or heart attack itself will stay there a while, perhaps a couple of hours, leaving one tired. It's all physical, there's no cold symptoms, rashes or spots. I was up in London, walking around trying to get somewhere but it was getting more and more painful. Eventually I just sat down on the pavement. With an extreme heart attack there is a very weird feeling, it's not possible to move, at all.

I write about this as people as are often upset by all the really unpleasant things that go wrong with our bodies. I'm not sure philosophy helps but perhaps a realistic rendition of the situation gives a bit of perspective on it. Kd.

I don't suppose anyone would choose to have a series of heart attacks and then write about it. However people do choose to write about things they have no experience of, I guess this is learnt at school where one may do an essay on the French revolution or Henry V. Just read it in a book and then write everything you know.